Hide and Seek

           God is really good at playing hide and seek. He says, "I'll hide, you seek." The problem is, I'm not that good at seeking. Horrible actually. I'm great at playing word searches and finding the remote when I lose it (I always lose it) but when it comes to seeking God, I fail miserably. I fail because I don't even start the search. I can never seem to gather the tools, and strap on my boots and start searching, and I'm not sure why. Is it laziness? It should seem easy to find God when you are surrounded by the things He created. Maybe it's because I know if I don't seek Him, then He will eventually give up on hiding and seek me out. Have you ever played hide and go seek as an adult, with a child? By now you are a skilled hider from all the years of playing and always find the best hiding spots the kids don't even think of. You hide so well that your legs fall asleep and you are drenched in sweat, sometimes you even fall asleep (true story). You finally just give up, come out and say HERE I AM, I'M DONE PLAYING. Well, that's what I am kind of doing with God. I don't know if I like it, I know I should seek Him with all my heart, but I'm just not good at it.
          Every time I am in a dry season, He eventually comes out of hiding and says, "HERE I AM." I am definitely in a dry season, or as I like to put it, a "quiet season". I recently got back from Uganda where I was continually flooded with His presence and I was in such a high from it, and now, I am back to my normal life, and things on His end are quiet. I guess they are quiet on my end too. He's hiding and I'm not seeking. It's a set up for failure. Why do we have dry seasons? Beth Moore puts it wonderfully, "Going through 'dry seasons' is the law of the harvest. You cannot constantly flood a crop, it will not come up. It needs to be tested." This absolutely makes sense. However, as God should know, I am horrible at taking tests. I want to be flooded with His presence again. Everyone who is in a relationship with Christ has dry seasons, and no one enjoys them. Take David for instance in Psalm 13

^"How long, Lord? Will you forget me forever?
    How long will you hide your face from me? 

 How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
    and day after day have sorrow in my heart?
    How long will my enemy triumph over me?

  Look on me and answer, Lord my God.
    Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death, 

 and my enemy will say, “I have overcome him,”
    and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

 But I trust in your unfailing love;
    my heart rejoices in your salvation. 

I will sing the Lord’s praise,
    for he has been good to me."

No matter how dry and desperate for God David is, he still praises God and rejoices. This is a time in my life, where I am single( I know right? I'm such a catch) and don't have kids. I have as little distraction as I can have and yet am still distracted. I need to be disciplined while it is easy so that when life gets tougher, I'll be ready. I just need to START.

"O God,  You are my God, earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for You, my body longs for You, in a dry and weary land where there is no water." Psalm 63:1

Lauren